Toxic. And by toxic, I mean people, personalities, traits. I used to think that I was surrounded by toxic people and I was so quick to be able to point out the flaws or toxic traits in others. Being in a relationship, I've even questioned how toxic my partner has been. It's only recently though that I finally decided to shine that light on myself and accept I am also flawed and have toxic characteristics. I'm very stubborn, so forgive me for this taking so long. But it's true.
I try to emotionally manipulate situations so that I look like the hero, when that's not always the case. My anxiety and other issues just feed this. So I want to make a firm resolve to actually work on this and issues tied to it but doing the following things:
1. Make time for self care
2. Focus on my own goals and interests
3. Fight fairly and consider the other side instead of assuming my emotions are justified
4. Communicate, communicate, communicate
I plan to work on these things and will check in and update on the progress.
