Feeling Insecure

Hello lovelies!

Today seems like a wonderful day to do a little blogging! I have had a good start to my day and have made it to the gym and work on time, which is a miraculous feat, let me tell you! I had my headphones in at the gym though and was just spaced out listening to music as I did cardio this morning when my mind stumbled upon the topic of being insecure. I can remember times I would walk into the gym, see people also working out, and then just pretend I forgot an essential piece of gym wear or equipment and walk out again. Now, I realize that pretty much 99% of the people at the gym don't actually give a crap that I'm there. Lol. They're really friendly and we smile and say hi and all that good stuff!

If you do encounter negative, rude, awful people you have to remember that obviously other people have feelings and opinions too and you can just ignore them! Also, sometimes a person's actions or words are a result of how they feel about themselves. If they put you down and want you to feel bad, it might be because they are unhappy. They may try to shake your confidence because even if they appear secure, below the surface they're not. Be kind to them, and be kind to yourself, there's enough of this negativity in the world!

This morning I just realized how my own feelings of insecurity in the past lingered over me and instead of impacting others, they impacted me the most. There were so many missed opportunities to go places, try new things, meet new people, just live, and I was scared. I don't know if any of you can relate, but all I can say is it's a process and it takes time. When I had the realization that I was my worst critic, I mentioned it to my friends in a casual conversation and it was this whole long talk we had until the wee hours of the morning. They thought I was amazing and after talking, I really think they tried to play a more active part in letting me see and know that. That support system got me through.

Now I still have bumps in the road where I suck, life sucks, all that, but I get over it and I don't let opportunities pass me by (which is lucky for you or you wouldn't even be reading this blog!). Be patient and forgiving with yourself, reach out to others to help you along the way, and just be happy and secure in how you look, feel, in everything!

Just remember...you are amazing!

That's all for now lovelies, but stay tuned for more and don't forget to check out all of my other goodies strewn across the internet (sounds dirty, but you know what I mean). Love ya, bye!

About happiness, because It's been a while...

Hello lovelies!


It has been quite a while since I last posted. Unfortunately life got in the way but I'm still alive and all is well. So what's been going on? Well...I've been making plans for lots of new content. I definitely know I want to do outfits and tips, as well as challenges, but then I was like, Kimberly, what are you good at?! Well the obvious answer is talking! I love to chat with people and find out about them. I also love to think, like soooo much. Sometimes it's just about stupid stuff, other time I go on this weird existential journey in my mind. I sound crazy right?! Well all those thoughts are coming out. I'm going on this journey and I'm going to see where it takes me!

Please come with me and see what happens. If you have any input or ideas of things you would like to see, please leave a comment!

In other news, I am official 24 now. I think it's around this time people have a quarter-life crisis, and I can definitely say that I have passed that milestone. I had one of those soul-searching, brutally honest conversation with myself about what I want to do with my life, am I happy, what can I do from here, etc. IT was not a happy conversation, trust me. I guess my thinking is this...on paper my life seems really freakin' awesome. I moved out from home (thought I would be terrified, but it's awesome!), got a career going in my field, stayed active at church, got a new car, made time for friends, and all that other good stuff.

But then after all of this I thought about it and was like, am I really happy? I think that as I get older, I realize how important being happy and loving myself is, and now I really need to explore that. So to answer simply, I am maybe happy? Lol. I realize that there are certain things necessary for life, like a stable income and all the creature comforts I require, but I need more. I need to travel and see the world, and explore other cultures, and meet new people, and give back to others, and take time for me.

So what am I going to do now? As of this moment, the plan is to keep on chugging. I'm going through the motions but I need more. That's why I'm doing all of this lovely YouTube, blogging, creative stuff. I want to see what I can do for myself and how I can realize my dreams. Don't we all owe it to ourselves to try for happiness?

So that's my little piece for now. I'm content but trying to aim for happiness, like pure happiness, not tainted by anything. So we'll see where it takes us!

Hope my lovelies are doing lovely, and Happy Mother's Day to all the mommies out there! I sure do love mine! Show her you love her not just on Mother's Day, but everyday! Love ya, bye!