Don't Panic.

So it has been a looooong while since I posted on this thing. So much has changed, so much has been happening! I'll save all that for another post, but for now I want to talk about panic.

You know that feeling you get when the world starts to close in on you and your chest gets tight and your brain goes a thousand different directions and you can't think? Yeah, that kind of panic. It comes from over thinking, from bad things happening, from any kind of trigger really. It happens to me quite a lot, a plan fails to happen, or I let my mind get carried away, and it's just me stumbling down a mountain into a pit of self doubt and worry.

I recently came across a quote of instagram that stuck with me and that I'm trying to embody and put out every day:

"We often want it so badly we ruin it before it begins. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it naturally evolve."

I needed to read that because it's been the story of my life. I'm a planner. It's in my nature to think of every possible scenario or worry about things not working out. In doing so I become such a negative person. I let all the fears and worries manifest and it shows.

Lately I've been in a more balanced place, although it's not easy. For me, the goal is to be able to recognize and stop my overthinking in its tracks when I recognize it happening. So far, I've been pretty good. I always have my moment of anxiety where everything feels like it's falling apart, but for the most part, it's been great.

I don't want to be a ball of anxiety walking around not appreciating life. I want to experience as much as I can, good or bad. Right now I'm in a really great place with a really great person. We respect each other and try our best to fit each other in to our busy schedules. I have high hopes for the future, but at the moment I'm just riding it all out an taking things at a slow pace. The most important thing to remember is what is meant to happen will happen, or if you're religious (which I am), to trust in God's plans for you.

That's my little piece for the day. I hope you're all well and not overthinking and just letting life naturally unfold in front of you!